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Saturday, December 06, 2008

Yeah, so besides a dickhead appeared during recording practice, the whole day was a pleasant one.

I think I speak for the both of us when I say "Go fuck yourself." Hmm, I guess I should have said that right in his face.

Jason Mraz has earned himself 3 Grammy Nominations! He totally deserved them, no doubt about that. And hopefully when the Grammy arrives in February 2009, Mr. Mraz is going to pick those Grammy Awards and bring them back into his humble little home.

Best Male Pop Vocal Performance
Song of the Year
Best Engineered Album (Non-classical)

Go Mraz!!

Peace Out!

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Butterfly

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

All I can say, I found a way to free myself from this monotonous lifestyle and I'm doing it alone.

Bringing only a bagpack and wearing casual clothes, I'm going to tour around Singapore, going to exotic places that I've never been before and experiencing a whole different culture. I need something enlightening to breathe life into my once-again broken soul. And I believe that this trip will let me bare my soul to the world and allow it to heal from its pathetic state.

I want to clear my mind, refresh it, squeeze out its contents out. I want to be reborn again, forget about all these mind-blowing shit. Re-energize my body and this time music cannot aid me.

Whenever I close my eyes, I don't see shades of blue skies and white clouds. I smell nothing, I feel cold all over. There is no taste of fresh new air. Silence is creeping towards me.

Why is this happening to me?

I need to be a Butterfly

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A Beautiful Mess

Friday, November 14, 2008

O Levels has come to an end. All those nights rummaging through the tattered textbooks and notes with a plate of MacDonald's meal by my side to satisfy my growling hunger is finally over. I became nocturnal with all these late night habits. Hearing things that aren't there, playing spooky online games(http://www.hotel626.com/), chatting with dear seniors and friends, was how I used to roll at night. And now, I guess it's time for me to close the book with this chapter and move on to better things in life.

I can't believe that I'm saying this but I miss studying. I used to hate studying. All those flipping of pages with unwavering concentration made me so sick of studying. But you what people say, when you start to be good at what you do, you naturally love it. I guess I pulled off a huge gamble with myself. I told myself: "Don't worry too much, you're going to do well at O Levels" when I got predictable stinky results. Well now at least I outdid myself. I think I did better than at Preliminary Exams. So I'm looking forward to uhh..better results than Prelims.

You guys want to know what's my opinion about O Levels? Actually I love O Levels a lot. This might sound crazy and absurd but that's how I really feel. O Levels is neither a chore nor a duty, it's like a game. Either you make it or break it. It's a once in a lifetime experience for all, unless you count yourself unlucky and you have to retake it. Sure, it's tiring but the experience is memorable. Can you remember when is the last time you study this hard and it's just to enter an institution? All those nights when you call your friend to confirm the colour of the precipitate, telling him to try out a Math question in the Ten-Year-Series and discussing which factor of Singapore Governance is the most important...Man you don't get better suffering than this.

So what now, you ask.

I don't know.

While I'm standing in my School Band room, studying the musical notes on my music score, my friends are out there working. My friends are now working in Tampines Mall's NTUC, selling beef during the Christmas period, earning $4.50 per hour for 7 hours. He said he could make approximately $800 every month. I don't know how true is that. Trust me, I haven't done the calculations so I've no idea.

My room is probably in the worst state at this time. Books are all stacked according to their subjects and I don't feel like cleaning them up. And I'm in the worst condition ever. I'm half asleep all the time with long sideburns sporting out and hair cut appointment ain't due til next year January, unless my parents make me go to the barber.

Oh man, I'm gonna look like total shit in the coming months.

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Lucky

Thursday, November 06, 2008

It's been a long time since I've touched the net.

It's hard for me to talk about anything right now because my neurons are just wiring plethora of information to my brain and I am clueless on what to talk about. I've been chucking sentences out of this post and re-typing on a new topic. I guess this is what you call a Writer's Block. Or in this case, Blogger's Block.

I apologise to my dearest computer for neglecting it over these past few weeks. Yeah I know, champ comp, I miss you too. And no, I ain't having any affair with my handphone or my iPod Shuffle so don't be upset over those, uh, "rumours". It's just that your good friend, the Internet, died on me, man. But it's all right. Without the Internet, I am given ample time to study for my exams.

And I'm sorry to my die-hard readers who have been expecting a new post everyday but only to find themselves disappointed, starring at the old posts. Well I heard from a vivid reader that she misses my posts...Aww, isn't that sweet? Well...I'm back, baby!

So what's been happening to me these few weeks? Of course, I bet you people knows that I've been put through a series of important examinations that can determine the course of my future. It wasn't an easy journey, especially with the first week when all the papers thrown at me everyday. O Levels journey is probably one of the best experiences I ever had in my entire life. And I'm planning a lot of things to enjoy my holidays til the release of results.

After O's, I'm going on a trip to Genting with my school band for a Band Competition. So I've got at least a week to practise whatever I got to learn and showcase it to a panel of judges. On the 21st, I have a Prom Night to attend and I just came to know that the girl I want to ask has already been booked. Luckily, she's not with any guy, but with a girl group. But still, damn...

After Genting, I've booked my close friend-cum-senior to go out to celebrate the end of examinations. Though I just read a little on her blog, but man, she's got herself a really heavy schedule and she's bored of her life. All I can say, if you really cannot make it, don't push yourself and just let go...But, of course, the best is to push on as much as you can and enjoy the fruits of your labour. It'll definitely be the sweetest moment of your life.

There'll be addition of new segments of this wonderful informative blog. A few weeks later from now, a new series of "Xing You's Infinite Playlist" will be posted on this very blog. It introduces the top few songs of a genre that I find absolutely rocking. To aid this new movement, I'll be using iMeem to let you guys sample the songs that I have introduced and hopefully, you will enjoy and widen your perspective about lyrically-written songs. *Singing* Lucky I'm in love with my classmate...

Things have been good so far for me, except that Prom Night bit, and I'm wishing that all these won't go away. And here's to good O Levels results and a bright future! Cheers, people.

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Make It Mine

Sunday, October 19, 2008

It's 8:10 in the morning of a beautiful Sunday with the sun hanging majestically up in the sky. Come to think of it, it has been quite a while since the sun was not overshadowed by the threatening dark clouds.

This is kind of my last post for the blog before I rightly explode during THE big O's. I fear for Chemistry. I fear for Combined Humanities. I fear for Maths. I don't know if I can do well and up to my expectations.

Intended Score
EL: A2
E Maths: A2
A Maths: A2
Chem: B4
Phy: A1
Combined Humanities: B4

Compared to now:
*following that order above*
C5
B3
C6
B4
A2
F9

That is some really fucked-up score, people. I certainly don't want that to fall on me.

I just a dream about her again. I was asking her out to Prom Night, I think. And all she did was wrote a little note in Chinese, so I was having some difficulty to read that note. Apparently, she knows but she doesn't wants me because I'm vulgar and I forgot what else. And at last I read, if we are meant to be, we will be together eventually but then was not the time yet...

And my friends brought me out to dinner to cheer me up and we had a great time! =D

I find myself in a strangely yet familiar position. It's like history repeating itself but now with a different ending. Last two years ago, I was sitting for my exams and those examinations are important as it determines what subjects am I going to take. And there was a girl factor affecting me very much before the exams and also after it. I didn't got the girl, but I got the results. And coincidentally, we are still in the same class.

Now, I'm about to take the O's and I like this girl again. Luckily, it's not the "past-her" that I like anymore, it's the "present her" that I admire. So there's a chance that I might be asking her to come with me on Prom Night.

And hopefully she agrees.

But if she doesn't? I'll still lead my life as normal, grooving to Jason Mraz's music but she'll be the girl who made the most impact on my love life.

Acing O Levels and the girl I like ain't going to be easy tasks, but I'll do anything just to Make it Mine.

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Love for a Child

Saturday, October 11, 2008

I guess Life keeps changing, spinning around an axis that doesn't exist at all. I'm like going through a series of cruel advertisements for "Ugly Betty" where the pictures of our friends keep rotating and rotating until it found the right picture. Mine used to stay at a few images that I really love, somehow someone hit the "reset" button and now I'm waiting for the rotations to stop.

My life is similar to the American TV show, Heroes. Not claiming I do indeed have extraordinary strength, but 1 single episode of "Heroes" is equivalent to one day of my life. You see, in a single episode of "Heroes", many things can occur. Similarly, one day of my life, many things can happen. All these culminates into a revolution of life.

Changing for someone is easy but changing for yourself is rather difficult as it's not only yourself that changes, it's your WHOLE life. It takes a huge amount of mental strength change your habits, beliefs and actions or you can mentally drop yourself into a vat of green acid as a threat. But as we all know, the former sounds much more sensible than the latter.

As much as I want my old friends to stay by my side, there's no use in placing myself in a world of delusion that serves as an escapism for me. Reality bites and it bites harder when you try to escape from it. I'm still a Child who's still makes stupid mistakes and hopes to earn forgiveness. But what's the point? Perspectives had changed and it won't bend back to it original state. There's another path to aid you but the path to Salvation won't be an easy journey ahead.

That's why once in a while, we need Love to encourage us to keep hanging on to our lives and also bridge the distance between misunderstood and disheartened buddies. I'm not referring to one person in particular.

*singing*: All I want for Christmas is Love~

Lee, dozing off!

P.S. Though this post may seem discouraging for me but there's no end to my joyfulness to my new life! =D

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Details in the Fabric

Thursday, October 02, 2008

I regretted a lot that I didn't bought the pink class t-shirt. I've been obsessed with Jason Mraz's "Geek in the Pink" that I was kind of craving for the pink t-shirt today. Man, I want to jump into that pink shirt and start grooving with the hip-hop rap song.

The shirt definitely looked like it was designed by some homosexual. However, it had the cute factor in it. Wearing class t-shirts kinda bond the class together, but the thought of this made me felt ashamed of myself. I didn't buy the shirt because I thought the colour was gay and it didn't struck me as an iconic design of the year of all class t-shirts. 4/6 had a really brilliant simple design on their shirt and it looks awesome.

Ours looks retarded and too simple for anyone's viewing. Though the design clearly shows no flair of any of our arty students, but it's the wonderful yet bitter memories that are woven into a shirt that depicts the different kind of experiences we had together as a class.

I am an living example of a result of this phenomenon.

Somehow, my name didn't appeared on the shirt due to some *clears throat* kind of printing error. Deep inside me, I was of course furious. Who the hell wouldn't get mad if their name didn't appeared on the class t-shirt. I was part of this class, people! Didn't I made at least a little contribution to our ups and downs in our classroom?!

However, I didn't wanna make a big fuss out of this. Besides, I didn't order any shirt for myself. So I'll be like a hypocrite if I were to shout at the people responsible for this printing mistake. So I didn't exhibit out my rage, only nodding my head to acknowledge the apologies and funny insults that were thrown at me from my classmates. I'm not that petty, you know..

I was devastated that my name didn't appear on the shirt and I didn't know how to react to this situation. Is it a blessing or my karma? After giving much rational thoughts, I realised it was actually a blessing in disguise! How so?

Using what I had told myself the other day, viewing such situations in an optimistic tone can really change one's dampen mood to a joyous one. I chose to see this as a blessing because if my name doesn't appear on it, people will remember me even more as the teenager who was so down on his luck that his name was not woven into the class t-shirt. Years later, when they dig up the shirt from their dusty damp cupboards, they'll realise there's two Faruq's name and the other belonged to someone else.

They may not remember my name but at least they felt my presence. Memories can be easily reminisced just picking up this very pale pink shirt and many memorable images will just fly through your head and who knows, you people may just break into a silly smile on your face. =D

Therefore, all these fragments of vivid colourful recollections are called Details in the Fabric.

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Live High

Sunday, September 28, 2008

I'm finally taking everything into a positive perspective, looking at situations from a different light and angle. Seeing how Jason Mraz was able to tour around Europe in a relaxing mood, riveling in the energy that everyone is emitting, made me realised how much I could view the world in an optimistic sight if I choose to.

But I did not. In fact, I made my life lousy. So now I know what I got to do to change it.

Though Jason Mraz did helped me overcame my stupid difficulties, I know my religion somehow helped me. I know you guys may be rolling your eyes and probably thinking "Oh no...Not some religious preaching idiot again.." But I'm not here to preach or convince you how my religion works and then persuade you to join my religion.

I'll use an analogy here:
Ever wonder how your television works? Or even how you get your computer to run a program? Sometimes we put away these tiny fragments of information away so you can just continue using them. It's the same with religions. You just do what you usually do and leave the learning of that complicated system to a later time in life.

But after 16 years in this religion, I still don't get the whole idea on how it works. Sometimes I just need to believe in things that have cold hard evidences that supports that particular theory.

But who the hell can explain all these miraculous shit? No one. It's all about beliefs.

Enough with the religious rants...

I just want to announce to the whole world that I'm superbly, undeniably elated. Living my life to the fullest with a strong heart filled with determination and confidence is the kind of life that I want to live.

And that's what I love about myself.

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Only Human

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Wow...I have never felt sooooooooooooo much pain in my shoulders and neck before. So there were a few times I felt this way but this is way beyond what I had felt. Man, I got this feeling of taking a plush toy stick and start hammering my shoulders and neck.

The other night I was asking my Dad to massage me(oops!) but it didn't help much. I was squirming and shouting away at every pinch of my shoulder muscle. He's good all right but not the right strength for me. I massaged myself this morning in the bus while going to school for an extra Geography lesson, profusely and sincerely praying away that the pain will ease. I felt a bit better but still, it wasn't good enough.

On Friday, I wanted to go to school in the morning, do a bit of work and of course: Look for Mdm Yue so as to apologise to her and ask when's the next Social Studies lesson. Somehow, I felt sick on early Friday morning, until now the reasons are unknown. I was having slight fever and I kept waking up in the night, rushing off to the toilet as I had to answer some really, really, urgent and cautious call from Mother's Nature. I felt so fucking terrible that I didn't went to school that morning. However, luckily for some Panadol pills, I still went to school and attended lessons til it ended. So it was a big achievement for me, somehow...Haha!

I realised sometimes I really gotta give myself some rest, I've been sleeping relatively late these few nights and I can't keep doing this or I'll be committing suicide. I still got to push on but don't stretch that rubber band til it snaps. A lesson for all of us: Don't push yourself too far or you'll fucking die...dead serious, people.

After all, we're Only Human...

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The Dynamo of Volition

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Wanted to blog the previous day but I found myself succumbing to the temptations of my comfy bed. So...I knocked off pretty early last night, as well as Tuesday's night.

Turned out that I had forgotten about extra Social Studies lesson this morning. I'm so sorry Mdm Yue...I'm going to look for you tomorrow morning if you're free to let me compensate you for today's lesson.

First time that my Physics practical graph so well done...I'm referring to the curve of the graph. It always seem that my practical are always giving me the trouble to earn that A1 or even a pass for my Sciences subject. Man, I'm getting quite nervous for the Chem practical that is coming. It's on October 7th. So here's me wishing myself all the best and remember to memorise all that Chem...stuff.

Oh I wanna thank Wan Lin for lending me that 20 cents so I can catch a bus home the other day. Gal, you have no idea how much it meant to me. I know we may not be like the best of friends or even classmates, but helping a guy at a desperate time really means a lot.

I found myself waking up in the morning, trashing about in my bed and crying. I was not having a nightmare but a very sad dream. It's been a long time since I dreamt about her. However I do not want this kind of sad dreams to dampen my spirits during the O Levels period. Please, no more sad dreams. What if she was having the same dream as I? That could be like a mental linkage between us! Yeah, right...my wishful thinking..

I guess it's time to let the power of my will to stop everything that could be an obstacle to my good O Levels results...GO! RUN LIKE THE WIND, XING YOU!!

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If It Kills Me

Saturday, September 20, 2008

I can't get over this feeling of guilt and shame. Now I don't know how to face this close friend that I framed and then apologised. Yeah, probably it's an appropriate time to sing OneRepublic's "Too Late To Apologise"...

Post Prelim Program has been hell but also kinda fun. I've been arriving in school later than the other students in school. I heard that the kids are having their first paper next week Monday. Well all the best people!

Jason Mraz's songs are a joy for me to listen to...So moving, so simple, so optimistic at times...I finally had found the songs to fit my mood right now. I've been so deeply affected by some matter than every song that goes into my ear makes me feel uncomfortable all over. Thank God, I bought Jason Mraz new album. It's a deux ex machina from...wherever it comes from..I love this album...I wanna forget the past and just move on but the ghosts of the past keep haunting me and the only way to keep these devils at bay are these soothing melodies from Jason Mraz.

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