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The Big Question

Thursday, January 31, 2008

WHY WHEN I DID SO MUCH CHANTING, IT DIDN'T HELP ME IN MY TESTS AT ALL?! DAMN I KNEW THE ANSWER, I KNEW HOW TO DO. WHY THE HELL DIDN'T MY GOD HELP ME?!

Now the sinking feeling is back. I never felt so discouraged in my life before. THANKS A LOT!

Epiphany

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

So here's the deal. No short-cuts, no beating around the bush. Let's get things straight.

I just had an A Maths today. There were a few qns that I didn't knew how to do. Binomial questions were easy. Yeah right. I actually took a wrong step and ended up having another answer. The wrong one obviously. I cursed and cursed myself for doing it wrongly while my friend who was never right in studies got it right. Again, can I just say that I am really, super, fucking angry with myself. I could now use a string of colourful words but I don't want.

It was during SS period when I started feeling a lot weird. I stopped talking and joking around. I was so affected by this change of mood that I had to change my seat to a much more peaceful surroundings. But of course, who can I kid. The classroom was noisy as hell. So I found a seat right at the front...The guys and girls behind me are making as much noise as possible while I took some glances at the relief teacher. I saw Farhan sitting by himself, reading a book. That was surprising. Camillie and Yan Ting were doing SS homework as instructed by Mdm Yew.

Right after that, when I was having lunch with Xiang Chou and the rest, I didn't talk much either. I only asked Wei Ling to lend me 50 cents for a Mango drink. I went to the Band Room next. Syazwanie, Hasinah were sweeping the floor. Wei Jie was mopping at the other end while Fabian was around, waiting to have someone to tell him what to do. It wasn't pity that drove me to help them.

Others soon came. It was like a family reunion, except we were all doing spring cleaning in the band room. As we cleaned up the floor of the band room, we were also having fun too. Me, Shaun, James and Wei Jie started goofing around with a t-shirt and at each corners we pulled the shirt simutaneously, trying to rip it apart. Then Bao Shan came along with a pair of scissors and helped us cut the shirt into halves. It had a very nice feeling to this fun.

I went to Chem lesson held by the Meridian JC students. I didn't want to sit with my friends at all. All I wanted is to be left alone. I sat at the back of the class, examining the groups of students sitting together. I couldn't stand it anymore so I left the class. I made up an excuse, saying that there was no point staying if I don't have my books to study. But actually the reason was, I don't feel comfortable being there. It was like sitting with a bunch of strangers and you don't talk at all, not even a "Hi!".

So I went back to the Band Room and saw everybody there still cleaning and mopping. I felt comfortable and elated to see them because I was with the people I knew very well. It was like I was returning back home from school and everybody greets me warmly. It was really cool. Syazwanie and I talked about the Band. She said that she looks forward to Band Practices on Thursday and Friday because she felt the warmness that everybody gives her. I couldn't agree more.

The Band is a family, with people who truly care about you and love you. I know I told some people that Band does takes up time and sometimes I don't want to go. But the actual truth is: I do enjoy going to Band. Like Syazwanie said, there are always new and interesting things to do, talk and hear about. That's why whenever I go to Band and feeling discouraged about it, after the practice, words cannot express this kind of happiness. Maybe it's called Love.

Orchidgarden

Friday, January 25, 2008

My life is now similar to a race track and I'm the sprinter. As I keep running, there are always the supporters there cheering me on. But on these supporters' face lies a fragment of events that I've gone through and they're gone in a split second.

I just caught Cloverfield in the cinemas this Monday, produced by J.J Abrams. I watched it with Xiang Chou and Zheng Qian. It was a good way to start off my year with movies. It was one hell of a scary movie caught on hand-held cam and it puts you right in the action and suspense. I seriously loved it and I jumped a few times in my seat.

Xiang Chou fell in love with the girl at my tuition centre. That was some fast switching of targets. Now with a farmilliar face at the tuition centre, I felt more comfortable as I had someone to talk to and now the class is much more livier than usual.

Oh and I bought a gift for someone. I think the regular readers will know who I'm talking about. I was struggling whether to give it to her or not because most probably I'll be the one looking dumb and embarrassed. In the end, I wasted my money and luckily I didn't spend much this time and whatever happened to that bag? Hmm..mystery bag..

O Levels results were released yesterday. My God. It was scary even though I'm not receiving them. The whole atmosphere was intense and my heart was beating non-stop. Gabriel and Vincent were the fews to make it the top-scorers' name list. Gabriel's 3As were a surprise. If a joker like Gabriel can do it, why not me? Seriously I got to work hard if I want to to be one of the top students...

My entry title pays tribute to Cloverfield and RIP Heath Ledger. I'm gonna watch The Dark Knight this year.

Run, run, run!

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

I never thought Sec 4 year to be such a busy year. Well, I'm wrong. If you don't start running now for that bloody O' Levels, you can jolly well forget about your future, so what are you Sec 4s waiting for? Start running! Stay consistent and don't stop!

That's all. Bye!

Mediocre Start

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

First day of school. What can I say? Besides everything new, this IS first day. It's like starting a new year with new faces and everybody has the same status unless someone starts talking. Fortunately my classmates are the same batch except three dropped out from my class.

What a dull morning it could have been, luckily there were Shaun and Farhan to spice up it up for me.

The Sec4s and Sec5s had a talk in the morning by Ms Bandara, the ex-principal of PRSS years ago. My mom kept saying that she gave an excellent speech. I thought so too but I'm not that crazy over her speech.

Classroom had six fans, that's the best part of the class. Mind you, my old classroom had only 3 fans and it constantly spoils. Now with six fans, I feel kind of blessed. :D

After school, I did my homework with Shaun. Dude was kind enough to help me buy the Pupil Diary first, thanks man. I had to go off at three because I promised Zheng Qian and Xiang Chou that I would be at ZQ's house sooner or later.

I did some of my Chemistry there. We played with some of ZQ's gadgets while studying. Hey I have improved already, I didn't last five minutes you know, after seeing those cards. Speaking of homework, I haven't done mine...crap..

I know this post isn't that good as my previous ones, because I just did this on short notice. So it's kind of messy and words are all around the place...

Can't tell you how much I hate school...