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Live High

Sunday, September 28, 2008

I'm finally taking everything into a positive perspective, looking at situations from a different light and angle. Seeing how Jason Mraz was able to tour around Europe in a relaxing mood, riveling in the energy that everyone is emitting, made me realised how much I could view the world in an optimistic sight if I choose to.

But I did not. In fact, I made my life lousy. So now I know what I got to do to change it.

Though Jason Mraz did helped me overcame my stupid difficulties, I know my religion somehow helped me. I know you guys may be rolling your eyes and probably thinking "Oh no...Not some religious preaching idiot again.." But I'm not here to preach or convince you how my religion works and then persuade you to join my religion.

I'll use an analogy here:
Ever wonder how your television works? Or even how you get your computer to run a program? Sometimes we put away these tiny fragments of information away so you can just continue using them. It's the same with religions. You just do what you usually do and leave the learning of that complicated system to a later time in life.

But after 16 years in this religion, I still don't get the whole idea on how it works. Sometimes I just need to believe in things that have cold hard evidences that supports that particular theory.

But who the hell can explain all these miraculous shit? No one. It's all about beliefs.

Enough with the religious rants...

I just want to announce to the whole world that I'm superbly, undeniably elated. Living my life to the fullest with a strong heart filled with determination and confidence is the kind of life that I want to live.

And that's what I love about myself.

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Only Human

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Wow...I have never felt sooooooooooooo much pain in my shoulders and neck before. So there were a few times I felt this way but this is way beyond what I had felt. Man, I got this feeling of taking a plush toy stick and start hammering my shoulders and neck.

The other night I was asking my Dad to massage me(oops!) but it didn't help much. I was squirming and shouting away at every pinch of my shoulder muscle. He's good all right but not the right strength for me. I massaged myself this morning in the bus while going to school for an extra Geography lesson, profusely and sincerely praying away that the pain will ease. I felt a bit better but still, it wasn't good enough.

On Friday, I wanted to go to school in the morning, do a bit of work and of course: Look for Mdm Yue so as to apologise to her and ask when's the next Social Studies lesson. Somehow, I felt sick on early Friday morning, until now the reasons are unknown. I was having slight fever and I kept waking up in the night, rushing off to the toilet as I had to answer some really, really, urgent and cautious call from Mother's Nature. I felt so fucking terrible that I didn't went to school that morning. However, luckily for some Panadol pills, I still went to school and attended lessons til it ended. So it was a big achievement for me, somehow...Haha!

I realised sometimes I really gotta give myself some rest, I've been sleeping relatively late these few nights and I can't keep doing this or I'll be committing suicide. I still got to push on but don't stretch that rubber band til it snaps. A lesson for all of us: Don't push yourself too far or you'll fucking die...dead serious, people.

After all, we're Only Human...

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The Dynamo of Volition

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Wanted to blog the previous day but I found myself succumbing to the temptations of my comfy bed. So...I knocked off pretty early last night, as well as Tuesday's night.

Turned out that I had forgotten about extra Social Studies lesson this morning. I'm so sorry Mdm Yue...I'm going to look for you tomorrow morning if you're free to let me compensate you for today's lesson.

First time that my Physics practical graph so well done...I'm referring to the curve of the graph. It always seem that my practical are always giving me the trouble to earn that A1 or even a pass for my Sciences subject. Man, I'm getting quite nervous for the Chem practical that is coming. It's on October 7th. So here's me wishing myself all the best and remember to memorise all that Chem...stuff.

Oh I wanna thank Wan Lin for lending me that 20 cents so I can catch a bus home the other day. Gal, you have no idea how much it meant to me. I know we may not be like the best of friends or even classmates, but helping a guy at a desperate time really means a lot.

I found myself waking up in the morning, trashing about in my bed and crying. I was not having a nightmare but a very sad dream. It's been a long time since I dreamt about her. However I do not want this kind of sad dreams to dampen my spirits during the O Levels period. Please, no more sad dreams. What if she was having the same dream as I? That could be like a mental linkage between us! Yeah, right...my wishful thinking..

I guess it's time to let the power of my will to stop everything that could be an obstacle to my good O Levels results...GO! RUN LIKE THE WIND, XING YOU!!

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Another Quickie

Sunday, September 21, 2008

I've added a few Jason Mraz's songs =D...Well I didn't find all the ones I want. So this is just part of a full playlist that I gonna present sooner or later...

So ciao~

If It Kills Me

Saturday, September 20, 2008

I can't get over this feeling of guilt and shame. Now I don't know how to face this close friend that I framed and then apologised. Yeah, probably it's an appropriate time to sing OneRepublic's "Too Late To Apologise"...

Post Prelim Program has been hell but also kinda fun. I've been arriving in school later than the other students in school. I heard that the kids are having their first paper next week Monday. Well all the best people!

Jason Mraz's songs are a joy for me to listen to...So moving, so simple, so optimistic at times...I finally had found the songs to fit my mood right now. I've been so deeply affected by some matter than every song that goes into my ear makes me feel uncomfortable all over. Thank God, I bought Jason Mraz new album. It's a deux ex machina from...wherever it comes from..I love this album...I wanna forget the past and just move on but the ghosts of the past keep haunting me and the only way to keep these devils at bay are these soothing melodies from Jason Mraz.

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Short Post

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

I guess what I'll be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do, our name is our virtue

I rekindled my love for Jean Baptiste Maunier, the angel face "Morhange" in the french film "Les Choristes". Okay, not the man himself, but his voice. His voice is one of the most beautiful sound I have ever heard in the world. Somehow his voice had already broke, due to god-damned puberty, so it's kind of sad that we lost such an amazing voice.

Besides loving and caressing Jean Baptiste Maunier's voice, I found another song that I love for its simplicity and sincerity. It's no other than Jason Mraz, the one-hit wonder boy who sings while dressed in the Pink. Though his latest album came out in March this year, I failed to notice this talent. Until now.

"I'm Yours" is a relaxing song which can soothes any tense nerves. It also makes you forget about the world and just be yourself. It is catchy, up beat and has a Hawaiian flavour to it. There ain't no better songs that can make ya wave your problems away.

So what has happened to me? I don't know what the future has in store for me. I just felt like I've been splashed with a bucket of cold water and I just woken up from a fairy-tale dream. And there's this urge for me to restart everything from zero. I wish I could still be like in the past. However, if I still continue from there, I may end up being a suicide.

But this is only a temporary new beginning. When O' Levels end, that will be the start of my new life...Everything is going to change, I promise...

Fact of the day: I drove off a representative of the Government when he came to my house to do a survey. I just woke up from my nap and wanted to have dinner. But this bugger came too late...I'm so sorry, man...and STOP calling me "Sir".

Just a quick post...

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Though the Prelims are already over, but I'm still quite buried in books. I did some notes for Physics during the weekends and also watched a few DVDs just to relax. I gonna tune in to Arts Central soon to watch a french film "Les Choristes".

I'm happy for Elaine, seriously. May you and Shaun's relationship continue to blossom more. Hahaha...

Bye...

Procrastination

Sunday, September 07, 2008

Feeling terrible. I guess I ate too much of Cadburry's chocolates. Now I'm having a flu, sore throat and a slight headache. Great timing, man...Just right before O' Levels and I had a minor operation on my foot which can't come in contact with with any liquid and I'm having trouble with moving around.

I made a blunder out of myself the other day. I felt so shitty that I fell sick...Sent a lot of SMSs trying to explain myself and I only got like 2 SMS back. Not that I'm complaining that it's not fair that I didn't got back the same amount I sent out. I just don't want to think anymore. The more I think, I only made myself worser than before.

Sometimes I wonder why I ever did a blog...For who am I writing to? No one, actually. Nobody wants to know who am I or what am I or more prominently, what exactly am I whining about. You guys know what? I don't even care if there's anybody reading it.

I used to have hope for myself through the support of my friends. Now I've drove one of them to the abyss. I don't know what I can do to get her back. I should stop. Stop thinking. Stop delaying my studies because of everything I've fucking done.

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But I can't.