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Life's a Bitch

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

I am probably coming to an end in my life. Not that I don't want to live on, just that I cannot because it's too competitive out there. I seriously feel like giving up on studying because no matter how hard I try, I still cannot be better than my friends and seniors.

Today was the release of the MT O Levels results and I got a B4. I am happy with my grade, because, taking in mind that I nearly screwed up Paper 2 and wrote a very incomplete conclusion for my composition and had different answers from my friends for Listening Comprehension, I got a B4 for my Chinese paper. So it's a miracle.

But somehow, competiting with myself is not enough. Bobby got B3, Shaun B3, Farhan B3, Su Juen also B3, Bi Xuan also....ARGHHH all the B3s making me go mad. Because of the indirect peer pressure, I have to reconsider my options. Again. To retake or not to retake??

I don't know. I don't feel like retaking because I know I'm done with Mother Tongue. I can't spend another week doing Chinese comprehension while trying to work out a goddamn answer for Chemistry paper.

Tomorrow is the English Oral for O Levels. Damn, man. My picture conversation is really weak. I sincerely pray to Gohonzon that tomorrow will be an easy one for me.

Seriously, I don't want to try anymore...I'm not cut out for this thing....haiz..