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Keep The Flame Burning

Friday, November 23, 2007

Sometimes when I'm given an inspirational speech or I had an epiphany, it always affects me in a very big way. I feel a sudden rush to do something right and to change things for good. It's called the Passion. Suddenly a fire within me is ignited, burning very strongly and brightly. This flame is called the Drive. With a Passion, this flames help you achieve your dream by driving yourself to do the necessary things.

I have a dream. A passion. I would want to be a film-maker. I would like direct those kind of indie films where characters matter the most, rather than the action like Transformers. I want to have an original and powerful plot to touch my audience. I want to direct movies that happens in real life and portray it on the screen. That is my big dream. But the road to sucess isn't easy. And that's where the flame comes in and that's where I can't get my heart into doing it.

Somehow I have this inability to drive myself to study. I'm always tempted to let it all go. My flame isn't burning when it comes to forcing myself to do the things that's right. I'm always distracted and I can't stay focus on the things I want. I want to be a director, I want this dream to be achieved, but I can't stay focus and do my work. It's all talk and no action.

I must learn and I must discipline myself. I must be strong and stay firm to my decisions but I need help. I cannot do this on my own. I need everyone's support. Like Su Juen mentioned on her blog, those are the fuels to keep the flame burning. And now, my fire is burning quite strongly. XING YOU! YOU MUST JIA YOU!!!

So yeah, that's all for tonight, thank you Su Juen for igniting the flame in me again. =)

This happened yesterday. I was too tired to blog about it. Band Practice drained my energy and I was feeling lethargic right after the dinner.

Su Juen came with a new percussion emsemble, Super Mario Brothers Theme Song. Shaun was like "Yayyyy" because he always wanted to play that song. It was quite an easy piece to play. I just have problems remembering which notes to hit. Until Sir say we changed parts when we played each song finished. It was chaotic for me as I don't know how to sight-read that fast. So we spent the whole day playing Super Mario song and the Variation for Twinkle Twinkle Little Stars. -.- I didn't want to play that because I was sick of playing mallets for every piece we encounter.

At night, the whole family went to Jack's Place to eat for dinner as it is to celebrate my elder sister's and bro-in-law's birthdays. We ordered like a plate for each of ourselves but mom and dad shared a plate. I don't what I ordered because it was my first time in Jack's Place. So my elder sister ordered it for me. It was pretty damn good. The potato with the sour cream and bacon was amazingly delicious, I forgot when's the last time I ate potatoes in this manner. Earlier, we had a plate of fries because it was something like a appetizer, and hell, I wished I had eaten less of it because I was very full by the end of the meal.

My younger sis had Fish and Chips, and my Bro-in-law had Fire Steak..Wow that's some fiery meal. When it came, the waiter lit up the whole steak and literally, it was on fire, I was "WOAH!!" and my sisters were saying "Be careful of your hair!" But of course, the fire did went out.

So yeah that's the end of this short post. Goodbye! I know the title of the post is lame...

Sweat Stung and Out

Saturday, November 17, 2007

First of all, I want to apologise to my readers that I've not been updating my blog. Sorry, people because these few days have been tiring for me as I've been attending NCO Camp since Monday til now. Today was the Passing-Out Parade, so you could say I have a little bit of chance that I could blog.

We had lectures from different amazing people. The first lecture had the lecturer how to become a good leader in different mediums. From this lecture I've learnt more than being responsible and having confidence. It's all very complex stuff so asking me to describe all of them is like asking Wolfmother coming to Singapore to perform. Err...random..LOL I learnt this from Melissa, a nice friend of mine.

2nd lecture was about the Band Movement in Singapore. Now I kinda understand the significance of having marching bands in Singapore...I was pretty much sleeping through the video presentation. Yeah so when I snored, that's when I woke up.

3rd was Mr Jaffa, the blind singer talking about his journey of being a musician. He sang a Bon Jovi song and a song that was used in the movie Notting Hill. Wow, he is one hell of a great singer. The way he played his guitar was so awesome. I bet this sparked a lot of enthusiasm in a lot of students, but for me, it was okay because my passion isn't really in playing music. I love music, but not as much as movies.

4th was about Rehearsal Technique and Elements of a Good Performance. I slept through the lecture until the whole mass of students started saying some rhythm and I woke up feeling a little confused. Then I realised, "Shit! Missed out on a good lecture". There's a whole lot of things I haven't learn about my instruments.

The display band technique is the most energy-eating, sweatiest, bloodiest, PAINFUL activity I've been through at this camp. 2nd day was terrible, and luckily the days got better. Now my legs' muscles are in sore pain and my shoulders hurt from carrying the cymbals. Thank god the other girl exchanged her lighter ones for my heavier ones. Display band technique may seem complex, but once you get the hang of it, it's actually quite easy to learn. I sweated so much more than the other people. The beads of perspiration kept flowing down my head and it went into my eyes a couple of times. Oh my God, I hate it because it ALWAYS sting my eyes and I can never open them again.

Today, Gabriel and Wei Jie came to our(me and Farhan) POP, and we took a lot of pictures. Sadly, I didn't got all the e-mail addresses of all the people I met and knew. Ashley, Jess, the saxophone players behind me during the parade block formation, and other people too. LOL I know what you guys are thinking, all of them are girls' names because I was too DAMN SHY to ask them so directly you know? I'm not really that thick skin. But luckily I asked one of the hot girls' contacts. LOL(I'm not that horny)

NCO Camp was a really great life-changing experience for me. I learnt a lot of things. I met a lot of new people, such as Changkat Changi's Faizul and Hafiz, and some oldies like Jeremy, the Band Major for Monfort Secondary School. I had a lot of fun too. This Camp wasn't very serious at all times. Mr Siao, the conductor for the band majors, is a funny person but once he want to get things done, he'll get it done. I like making people laugh, that's probably one of the best things I've done at this camp. I guess my social skills have improved, but I still prefer talking to people whom I know...

OKAY OKAY, I got to go now so bye..please don't die at the end of this post, I know it's long enough to make you gag...

Emptiness

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Nothing feels up my heart right now. It is beating at a very slow pace. Not even Heroes could set my adrenaline pumping faster permanently. If this continues to me, I think I'm most probably going to lose my heart and lose myself.

I'm am FUCKING SICK of school. This Sec 3 Holiday Program is driving me nuts. The first day of school, several of my classmates and myself gotten pretty nice music from Ms Chua for being late when we weren't. I just reached school and she expected me to hear the announcement she made? C'mon, give me a break. If we are not interested in studying, in the first place, we wouldn't be there already. Thank God, tomorrow is a public holiday, so I don't have school.

Xiang Chou and Zheng Qian have been mentioning of someone in front of me for the past few days. I blew my temper at Xiang Chou when I heard from Zheng Qian that he made fun of me and that person. Seriously, it's not cool, dude, but I forgave him already. I'm already sick of school and now these guys are just adding fuel to fire. Wow that is seriously nice of them. Stop mentioning that person in front of me, it's not that I hate her, I just don't like hearing her name and remembering stuff that ain't memorable. If you come across this post, I don't hate you for real.

The only source filling up this emptiness are the Bossa Nova songs that I'm listening right now. Mostly all are about love songs and her voice is enchanting. They are sang by Olivia Ong, a Singaporean Singer. She's pretty much an underground singer but give the time, I'm pretty sure she'll make it big in the future.

That's all for today, so goodbye!

I've Just Seen A Face

Thursday, November 01, 2007

I was fumbling between two songs, Widows Peak by Dashboard Confessional and this one..Turns out that this song suited the post below...Enjoy the lyrics =D

The Beatles - I've Just Seen A Face
I've just seen a face,
I can't forget the time or place
That we'd just met, she's just the girl for me
And I want all the world to see we've met
Na na na na na na

Had it been another day
I might have looked the other way
But I had never been aware
And as it is I dream of her tonight
Na na na na na na

CHORUS:
Falling, yes I am falling
And she keeps calling me back again

I have never known
The likes of this, I've been alone
And I have missed things and kept out of sight
But other girls were never quite like this
Na na na na na na

CHORUS

I've just seen a face
I can t forget the time or place
And we'd just met, she's just the girl for me
And I want all the world to see we've met
Na na na na na na

CHORUS
Here's a video from ATU movie..MARY-ANN YOU CAN ENJOY HIS VOICE HERE LOL.

Everytime when I'm on the computer, nearing 12AM, I always turn and look at the digital clock on the screen. It was always show the same thing, 11:11PM. Such a coincidence. Why? I ask myself. I don't know the answer. I need an epiphany to enlighten myself.

I have a dream to fulfill. I need to be a film director because I don't see myself as a clerk or a office boy doing all those paperwork job. It's frustrating and life is boring as hell. I want to do something fun like moving around and be creative as much as possible. But as time passes, I often feel that something is missing in my life to achieve my impossible dream.

11:11PM. The Time of Coincidence, I call it now. Somehow I realised that seeing this time it reminds how many times me and her were so close together for quite a few times last week. There she was, standing there right in front of me and I was afraid, not shy but afraid to see her. I couldn't possibly face her on that spot. I want to run as far as possible, but I could have gotten scolded and she will know that I'm trying to avoid her.

Is it love that I'm missing? The very thing that I have let go is actually the thing I need the most. It doesn't have to be her. I just need that feeling back in my heart so I can drive myself further ahead. I miss that feeling a lot. It was a year ago when that someone made me really appreciate the feeling of it. Every feeling for a girl is unique and something that can't be forgotten. I bet that every decent guy thinks that way. For every sweet, there's a flavour to it, I believe.

Before I sign off, I'll leave you readers this:
Love is interesting and exciting but when you get to know that person better by commiting into a relationship, you're actually commiting a mistake. So how do you know whether he or she is the right person for you???

Answer it by tagging my tagboard :D thanks.