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Decisions

Monday, October 23, 2006

Decisions

I've been through many tough battles in my head, thinking it through and pondering, and the thing is, I managed to win the battles but this problem has been like a prick in the fucking neck. Time is running out and I gotta make a quick decision, it's either I do nothing about it or I take matters into my own hands. I've been running away. Run, run and run...I can sure run, but how long can I last? I seriously don't know, becaus one day it's going to screw me up badly that I will never ever face up to that person.

I wish I died on the spot, my brain is nearly bursting now...Whenever I get high, I will knock my head with my hands and shouting "AAAAAARGGGGGGH" Why is it so hard to do something right? I wish someone understand me, thank God, I told Andrew, he's always right. Bobby and Shaun, I know you guys think that's the right Decision to do but I'm sorry, I can't fulfill it, I don't want the whole shit process repeat again, nothing good is going to happen even I keep it. I can't embrace it, that's why I'm throwing it away. Please no more mental torture...

Listening to Clay Aiken's Album "A Thousand Different Ways, an album filled with love songs. Man, digs his vocals, different ranges of vocal and bloody brilliant...Played "Becaused You Loved Me" at my sister's wedding(mentioned this before), nice songs and compilations...Ok I gotta go...bye!